Friday
Not sure why but I kind of had a real flat day yesterday, thoughts of low carb eating went out the window, toast, sushi, crackers and a WW cereal bar, no fruit at all - why did I do that!! I did manage to pull myself into line and not have them for dinner, also no exercise at all unless I could count a lousy 5,240 steps! Pleased days like this are rare and feeling heaps better today. Sort of wondering having more carbs made me feel flat???
This all brings me to something else - I always tried to be open in my posts but now feel I need to be even more open, but at this stage in a private (invite) blog getting my thoughts together. There for you to read if you want an invite but also there for me to work through what is happening.
All along besides striving to win to reach my goal of a healthier lifestyle and weight I have been dealing with another issue in my life, something I have touched on here briefly from time to time –Anxiety / Panic attacks. Interesting to find out the friend of ours who experienced them recently did so because of medication he was on for the flu!!! So lots of factors are there, this is what I want to find out. I always thought (or used to) that I was invincible until the first experience of an ‘attack’ struck me. Really looking back they were gradually building up, then – wham – they were there!! Being the stubborn tart that I am – I fought to sort it and I know I have come a huge way, not opting for medication, instead looking for alternative therapies and just dealing with it as I can – but it’s always there in varying degrees to hit me no matter how much I fight it. For instance the “light headed feeling” I experienced in the yoga/pilates class is quite a good example of what happens. I hate them! I feel like it is a real weakness, almost something to be ashamed about. But having a good talk with the doctor the other day after my smear, she said 1 in 10 people suffer them frequently and 1 in 4 have them at some stage in their life. She is also going to put me onto a team of nurses locally that help people and who knows I may be able to help others with my experience. Keeping a blog has helped me with weight loss and my aims, I now feel by writing and going back to scratch with what happened may help me. I don't want it public though as I want to know who is reading! So I will be starting to write about another aspect of my life. If you want to read I will send you an invite.
Bit of a gloomy post! Yet I'm not feeling the less bit gloomy today, the sun is out, it's Friday! Of to start another blog.
14 comments:
Anne if you would like me to, I would like an invite. We all suffer from something and it is nothing to be ashamed of and it is brave that you want to verbalise it, not something some of us can do. Dont be afraid to ask for help and take care of yourself
xxx
I'd love to be able to read about your experiences. Maybe that way I can help someone else I know who has them too.
I'd love an invite Anne, someone very close to me is going through something similar and I would love to know more about it.
Isn't the weather glorious!
Long may it continue.
Dear Anne
I have also suffered from panic attacks and they occasionally rear their ugly head every so often.Thank goodness though, I have mastered some techniques to alleviate them from blowing out to much. Try not to feel ashamed of them it only adds to the anxiety.If you would like to talk more about it please do not hestitate to email me and I'd also like an invite if you fell comfortable with it.
Kerry
celtic_girl@optusnet.com.au
I would like an invite. I find that blogging helps with my anxiety. though I'm also on meds
See you tomorrow mate, my place, my "shout"...
I have never had panic attacks but did go through an emotional breakdown 2yrs ago in which looking back on was very similar to symptoms you describe. And totally know the feeling of being ashamed about it but seriously it is nothing to be ashamed of.
If I can help with advice or just being a sounding board I would feel honoured to have an invite to your new blog. My email addy is bills-honey@hotmail.com
Hi Anne
I love to follow your weight loss journal - I find you very inspiring
I would be honoured to read your private journal if you wish it
Dianne sydney
sorry Anne my email address is mco30527@bigpond.net.au
Dianne
Hi Anne
First of all I was kind of counting on catching up with you while I was there so do hope we can get together. When I first mentioned it to Chris she said she was going to try and get a few bloggers together - but this was all done in a couple of garbled comments just before we went off on our trip as I booked the flights then cos they were a good price.
As to Your other blog I'd love to be part of it. One, because a good friend of mine many years ago in Scotland suffered for a time - although interestingly enough she (with help) was able to work out what caused the first one which helped her work her way through it. But the other reason is that I think I can identify with your feeling of it being a weakness (and I certainly don't think that it is) but I think it's to do with always being in control of your life - then suddenly you're not in control - and I know I'd struggle big time with that so think I can understand where you're feelings of no longer being invincible come from. I'm rambling now so will shut up. Have a brilliant weekend
Love z xx
Oops - forgot the email
anni.porter@gmail.com
Hope you are feeling better soon. Would love to keep following your journey. Take care
Anne. Lately I have been having some strange feelings and 'turns' for want of a better word. I just put this down to being a very tired Mum but part of me is wondering if it is more than that. I panic about coming to work - and have had serious thoughts about just not coming in - and see what happens. But then I chicken out and go in. I have even had an episode when I was driving in the car where I got a bit stuck reversing in a car park and called Mark to come and get me as I refused to drive the car one more inch. Could this be the same thing?? Any-hoo (I think I talked a bit more than planned) I would be happy to read if you want to share. Email is margaret.ev at gmail.com
When I was taking reductil it used to give me the side affects of anxiety and man it was a horrible thing and I can totally understand how you are feeling....
I had a panic attack going to a friends place the other day and hubby was looking at me strange... it is a feeling of losing control (that is how I put it to my husband) and I don't think it is a weakness at all hun...
It is great that your doctor has put you on to these nurses because they will know how to help..
Would love to read your private journal hun... if you would have me.
Love Chubbymum
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