A vicious cycle
To be honest - emotions are giving me hell at the moment. But then I thought I have to remember that this blog is for me! This is where I write how I deal with both eating and exercise and the never ending battle of striving to keep the weight of that I have lost (also with that aim to lose just a bit more). So here it is - I've gone from not wanting to eat much (everything tasted like cardboard) to not really caring. This results in me picking at food mindlessly, all a vicious cycle where I feel like crap. Well I am being honest! I know I feel great when I eat well, lower the carbs instead of my points as they have been lately coming mainly from crackers and bread! As you know I tried weighing in back at WW - lasted a few weeks but that has fallen by the wayside. Just found it didn't really help me like I thought - I feel I have heard slightly different versions of the meetings for over four years now!! I'm not getting a thing out of it. It bores me!!! Just goes over my head! Nothing against WW as this was the only way I could have got to were I am, but really I'm over sitting at meetings. Another reason why I decided to no longer record at the meetings. However - I'm not going to fall by the wayside and as of today, I'm back tracking. I can do it despite what ever life is throwing at us. Weigh in will be at home, and I'll update the sidebar weekly as I have in the past - pleased after weighing this morning to see I'm only up about 400 grams from my last weigh in at WW. The weight on the side will be lower as our scales are lighter than the ones at WW. I feel better already! As with everyone out there the next month or two are challenging ones with social functions, Christmas and holidays - not good to tackle it feeling like I don't care what I eat - dangerous in fact! So I need to sort myself out or else I will be here after the holidays a good few kilos heavier! I don't want that!! So eating has been a bit hit and miss - but exercise is going well! Five aqua sessions so far this week. Will go back tonight, plus I've been getting stuck into the garden. Just have to get the exercise and eating going well together!
As I mentioned the silly season is almost on us. Looking at the calender for the next month - we are going to be busy!! One of Peter's nieces phoned last night to try and organise a get together with his family, good luck to her!! Peter is one of eleven with countless nieces and nephews and then another generation of great nieces and nephews coming on!! Huge as you can imagine. The night the niece chose - we have something else on (a friend's 60th) so we will have to flag the get together. Actually it wouldn't matter what night she chose, we have something on each weekend! Always makes me wonder though - what about the other eleven months of the year?? Everyone seems to want to catch up before Christmas. Makes me think maybe next year to try to have more spontaneous get togethers - "just because", rather than because it's Christmas!
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See why I stopped going too??? Same reasons. And I like the idea of "just because" family gatherings too!!! See you saturday and Monday night I hope!
I sent you an email about monday night.... going to have dinner here! will have my kids .... no Stew... no sitter... so thought a BBQ here would be ok?
It is a hard journey but when you find something that makes it easier for you it will be great.
I know that WW was working for me for 2 years and then I found that I wasn't learning anything different but it was good at the time. I find I don't stress as much now with weighing in at home once a week.
I have 2 buddies that are helping me at the moment and find that it is just the right size and ladies. Just make sure whatever way you decide that when times get hard you still manage to weigh in and no excuses and that way you won't slide into no return ya know..
Plus you have us here on blogland.
Love Chubbymum
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Great going with the exercise. Bummer about the food. BUT I know the feeling well and really do sympathise. You have to do what you have to do and since you are already recognising the signs I bet it wont be long before the carb cravings are back in the box. Enjoy all your socialising.
I love getting together sporadically with my family, we have a great time together and laugh so much.
It's that time of year when it does get really hard trying to balance life & food & exercise. We can only do so much so I am going to not stress about it all either. Love the idea of gettogethers "just cause" :) Sorry I didn't get to phone.....life kinda is a bit hectic round here....LOL. Promise I will be in touch real soon but in the meantime here are some 'cyber hugs' :)
wow your journey is much similar to mine, started at 98, lowest weight in march this yr was 70.8 and now i am sitting on 75 exactly. my goal is 70kgs.
you are doing so well.. i too do WW and i got sick of going to the meetings so i stopped and that is how i put on my 8kgs and went up to 78!!!!! but im back there and weighing people at the meetings and back down to goal.. or close to it!
good luck xxx
Sorry that things are still tough. Thinking of you.
Eleven of a family - wow. I have one brother, one nephew and one niece - how deprived. (And no grandchildren...).
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