2008 and here I go again!!!

I felt flat yesterday. A combination of- being tired after our holiday (hey - that doesn't sound quite right!), back into work mode, a cloudy, muggy day, piles of washing to do, and finally realising that the party is over! The indulgences I had over the break was really nothing compared to my old standards but still way too much and the wrong food for me these days. How easy it would be to just keep on going in this way - scary!!! I was at the stage that I didn't give a damn what I ate or drunk, no cautions at all!! Hard now to go from that to getting any form of 'normal' eating - I hate feeling like this, like I don't care what weight I am, don't care if I gain weight. I've had some couldn't care less moments in the past - but not this bad!

I've been thinking hard of the benefits I have found through losing weight loss, how good I feel now to how I used to feel. Trying to remember back to what it was like to feel bigger and overweight. I think it is working! I dragged my self of to aqua yesterday, I stayed on track, I even drunk a few glasses of water. I got out 'the white t-shirt' which is the only bit of clothing I've kept from my big days. It used to fit snug, but it's gigantic and I don't what to go back to that!!! Only one thing to do - is to get back on track! I've managed one day. This morning I woke up, feeling a lot happier, a lot more focused, less tired and ready to face any challenges ahead of me. It's a bit forced but I'm sure I will get back into it being second nature again.

Today plans - get down the Christmas decorations! I'm child minding so as work is still quiet we will go somewhere for a drive this afternoon. Aqua tonight.

Has got me thinking about plans for 2008. I’m working on a list… Not just food and exercise plans but lots of things going on in my mind that I want to try. I'm looking forward to 2008 and feeling a whole lot better than I did yesterday!