Mini melt down

The first person I saw after receiving the news about my cousin yesterday was the doctor. Do you know how you think you feel ok and then someone asks you how you are and then you realise you're not ok and the tears start. A bit of a mini melt down. I felt silly but managed to compose myself and explain, the doctor was lovely and handed me a couple of tissues. Between Peter's and my family in just over a year we have lost five young family members - the oldest one 55. We've had our share and hope that will be it for some time. Weird feeling as I always knew I would see AnneMarie again. How wrong I was. Always in the back of my mind I had the idea that one day I would get back to Scotland and now the last family member I had that I was close to has gone.

So yesterday was a real mixture.
Jordyn's op went ok - poor little man went to theatre at 10.30am and not back to the ward until 1.00pm, however they were allowed home later in the afternoon. This op must have gone deeper than the rest as the dressing has to stay on for a week, he can't get it wet etc. The last couple of ops the dressing could come of after a day or so and we could hardly see the incision. The whole birth mark is now removed and apart from maybe a little tidy up surgery if needed - it's gone!

The doctors visit - well damn it all is all I can say! That's being polite. Despite all my efforts my blood pressure medication is increased, still not the dose I used to take but what the hell - I feel I'm going backwards here. She was brilliant though and I know she totally understands. She told me I hadn't failed and to continue how I'm going, also she will see how I go at the next gym assessment. I felt a bit better when she told me I was doing everything I could but sometimes genetics play a part.

The gym - I haven't been this week! I gave Monday a rest thinking it would give my legs a chance to settle down a bit more. Fully intended to go yesterday but just didn't feel like it after getting the news about my cousin, also waiting to hear from Rachel about Jordyn. Then I don't think I can go today as waiting for the computer firm to come and do some work on our computers, the connection between the two computers and the laptop has given up (that's the cause of the internet problem we had) so it's a matter of waiting, waiting for this guy to show up. Mid morning he thought? Then helping at WW this afternoon/night so that is out. Not all is lost though as I determined to still fit in three sessions this week - it looks as if they will just be later in the week.

I have mentioned before I'm a bit clumsy, I seem to have quite careless accidents from time to time. Monday was one of those days, I parked the car in front of the office, came into the office, looked out the ranchslider to see the car slowly running down the drive so I raced out. Oops the hand brake wasn't completely on. Our sleepy, half blind, half deaf dear old golden retriever Amber was snoozing right in front of it's path! I was yelling at her to move and then I tried to stop the car from rolling further by pushing it with the side of my body, Amber slowly got up and then I had time to jump in and put the hand brake fully on. I'm paying now with a sore knee, leg and ankle, nothing too major but I'm going to watch it. I think it just got twisted. LOL I went back intot he office and asked Peter if he saw what happened. He must think he is married to a mad woman at times.

Finished our day yesterday with a 70th birthday party. It was a good night with a lot of family there.

Bit of a rambling post - but that's life at the moment.