Sort it out and quick!
I'm using part of Helena's comment on my last entry as my title. Quite appropriate! I'm being honest here. Honest and a bit confusing!! The past few days I've been feeling a bit fed up, tired about worrying about what I can and shouldn't be eating, tired of trying to achieve the exercise goals I've set myself. The lifestyle change now seems like a constant battle. Sometimes this is easy, I can do it without thinking and other times it's hard! That's what it's like now! I'm even pushing myself to go to aqua which is not like me at all! I'm not sure why I'm feeling like this, I know it won't last, well it's not going to last! Helena's comment was crikey thats not like you, sort it out and quick! I needed someone to say that to me!
The weekend away seemed to trigger some negative feelings in me about what I call the life style changes I've made. It gets bloody tiring when people are commenting (as below) you know the comments, I'm sure you all get them. Comments can be meant to be compliments but to me there is a difference. The comments aren't negative at all and I should just take it in my stride - normally I do. Here are some of them:
''Are you still on a diet?" Grr I hate that word!
''Oh so you are still keeping your weight down"
''How can you say no?"
''You are looking thin'' Slimmer yes - but thin no!
''do you still exercise?"
and then there was this one
"Anne's been good she isn't going to have any of these"
Which made me think - Yes I bloody well am!
It all gets a bit tiring, and I got thinking I just want to be normal. That sounds strange because I am normal but what I mean is I want to go somewhere and just have exactly what I want, without thinking about it! I look at people all around me, they don't seem to worry about what they are eating. Wouldn't it be great - No point counting, no worries. I also don't want attention drawn to what I'm eating or not eating. I've never made a big deal about what I'm doing, in fact for ages this time very few people even knew I was doing WW, it wasn't until they noticed the weight loss and asked. So this weekend was I trying to be normal. So when the chocs, etc were handed around the bus - yep I helped myself, not because I wanted them but just to show I could have them. My mind does strange things at times! Then the vicious cycle hits, out of routine, a few days not tracking - it's hard to get back into it again.
To sum up - I am slimmer, healthier, I'm enjoying being a woman! I love new clothes and love the fact I feel great when I dress up and go out, I like where I'm at, I've gained confidence, I am happy. I would hate to back to where I was. There is a price for all of the above! Simply that I do need to think about what I eat. I do need to either track or follow healthy eating lifestyle. I can plan treats, I'm not deprived! I was doing a mini rebel thing over the weekend. Also I tried to work out my thoughts about wanting to be normal - being honest I think normal to me that would be me going back to my old eating habits and not giving a thought to what I was eating. And I know where that would lead me.......
Exercise last week and this week - not good and not because of the above! Last week I wasn't well, and this week I'm fighting a cold, nothing too major but coughing a bit and have a sore throat. I'm trying to get back into my old routine of three gym followed by aqua, just a matter of building up to it again.
8 comments:
OMG it is soooo what I am going through at the moment. I want to be normal and still lose the weight but still not feel like I am constantly thinking about food and what I should or shouldn't eat.
Helena is a gem isn't she!!! She says it how it is. I love her for that!
I must admit I am tired of going in to the tea room at work and people asking what I am having for lunch and "can you eat that on your diet" OMG some people have to realise that I can eat any bloody thing I like as long as it is in moderation and in a way I think that is why I am going off the rails sometimes because of the constant "Wow didn't think you could have that on a diet" when it was only a sandwich ya know.
Girl I am always here to chat to if ya need it.
Love ya
Chubbymum
Sounds like lots of us are feeling in a slump lately.. me for sure. I am struggling to get back into the groove with the gym... going to RPM tonight at the Lido.. hope that kick starts me again. Will we be seeing you this saturday??
Trust me - eating whatever you like is not that great... I went into 'rebel' mode for 18mths. You soon get over the excitement of it. For me the feeling of having control of my eating far outweighs the joys of not caring about points.
But in saying that I do understand how you're feeling
I hope you have a quick comeback to these people who make these inane comments. Because you know you shouldn't be taking on board what they're saying. We will always have our little hills climb, just don't let them become mountains.
Hope you get your mojo back soon.
Yes I can relate - there's some days when the whole things gets to you and you feel like you're going under with the constant need to do the 'right' thing - but really it's not your revised lifestyle that's the problem - it's your temporarily maladjusted mood! I find sometimes that a quick try on and a waltz in front of the mirror of a couple of snazzy outfits makes you remember why you embrace this new lifestyle! Hang in there - another couple of days and you'll wonder how you could have been feeling like this.
Cheers
Z
you realise its guilt that makes the journey hard? Whenever we "perceive" we've screwed up, we feel guilty and then suddenly its "too hard" ... all we need to work out is ... how do we stop feeling guilty? cos when we do, it will be easy.
You said it yourself, you rebelled. But just look at the context of it all, you made some good choices, you made some bad choices over ONE weekend and suddenly you perceive you've "screwed EVERYTHING up" - translated ... EVERYTHING is hard. So put it all back into perspective, get off your guilt trip and pick yourself up again, cos you arent on a diet, this is your lifestyle and um ... lifestyle aint supposed to be hard because its the way you've chosen to live.
*huggles with a big grin*
I can SO relate to this post! Thank you for expressing it so well.. I am struggling too at the moment and am SO tired of these useless comments that people make (and the more I lose the more they seem to make them)..
All I can say is don't give up.. We have made these lifestyle changes not only to look better, but for better health and self esteem.. And I know when I'm feeling in control I'm feeling on top of the world! That feeling is definitely worth it!
Hope you are feeling better this week..
Hope you are back on track soon! I know what you mean, I was doing good last year and making good strides and then I slide big time at xmas and didn't recover and back on track for months. You can do this and do it better than I, I think. We will be normal. I think normal sized people watch what they eat too. Maybe not all the time on the weekend but I bet they are strict during the week when you don't see it and exercise like a mofo!
I know what you mean by the comments, it sucks but it happens when they know we are trying to lose or maintain.
Good luck to you, look like you've come a long ways and that's something to be proud of.
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